Thanks for responding and thank you for sharing your story with me. My husband tries so hard to understand but he only sees it as 4 months, and it is really nice to know that you understand how different that is for me. I will go and buy that book tomorrow. I think it will help if I am doing something instead of just waiting.
I didn't even know how much I wanted children until last year, and even though my child wasn't born I still feel like I was a mom. Now I want it more than anything. It was just too short of a time. I am working on forgiving myself, but I fear that that will take the longest to achieve.
Again, thank you so much for sharing this info with me!