Posts: 1
Location: SoCal
Registered: September 2006
Re: This Sucks
Thu, 07 September 2006 01:42
Thank you Matt. For being a man among men.
Today was brutal. In the past 24 hours we saw the babies heart beat during two ultrasounds before having to say goodbye. My bride and I were about 8 weeks along. She felt something wasn't right and yesterday afternoon the radiologist who viewed the scan voiced his concerns followed by a phone call from the OB/GYN that suggested surgery that evening. I was flabbergasted by the snap diagnosis and requested a follow up for this morning to be cross reviewed while the love of my life was distraught and in tears. Love started bleeding heavily early this morning and we spent 6 hours in the ER while they confirmed the diagnosis of Cornual Ectopic. She's resting after surgery now and told her mom and I to go home and rest. Luckily we live only a couple miles from the hospital. I can't sleep. I've made half a dozen phone calls to close friends and family. Man I felt helpless. Last year we had a D&C because all growth stopped at 6 weeks and no fetus was seen. It's difficult to be that "rock" and hold it together. I love my bride and let her know it even though she could sense I was angry, not at her, at the fact that there was nothing I could do. I would do anything to make the grief and sorrow go away. It's hard to learn humility. God's plans are bigger than mine. I'm thankful that we have such good care available and that my bride will be home by the weekend if all goes well, that we avoided a possible complication far worse, that we have a prognosis of future pregnancies should we continue to desire a family, that we can talk to other folks who share in our experience, and that his hands hold our child.
Thu, 07 September 2006 01:42
